A Sacrificial Surrender to Love

When God speaks of His desire for us to be perfected in love, what does this say unto you? I know that “this” is the highest utmost desire of my heart. In human flesh I would say that to “totally” attain this, is not to be achieved in a lifetime. To my knowledge it never has, however there are examples that have been exceptional experiences of extravagant love.

“Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away.” (1 Corinthians 13:8-10 ESV)

Until Jesus physically returns again for His bride we will merely see though this looking glass darkly. Our perception is still filtered though a human vessel. Yet I aspire to become utterly fearless in pursuit of the level of love that is the Father’s heart; to make it totally consuming all that I am, overtaking any and every part of life’s material expression and totally known is my reason for being. It is coming to the point where I must lay everything down for it to totally consume and swallow up my entire essence. This drives my human thinking mind nearly insane in certain moments. It makes my flesh hurt so intensely that I back off because I haven’t been able to bear such yet for very long at a constant. Yet I keep stepping back out onto those waters in faith. I believe God! I truly do and that is amazing!

Is this fearless faith pressing through the crushing towards the matchless; unstoppable, unshakable, unmovable and ever abounding in nature? I wonder sometimes as it feels like I am about to spontaneously combust. I have made this my all-out quest to understand the dimensions of the love of Christ and to communicate it to every soul who is hungry and thirsty enough to give up everything and anything for the presence of God to take front and center precedence.

“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.” (1 John 4:18 ESV)

“Perfect” means consummate, complete, total, lacking nothing, fulfilled. “Love” means “Agape Love”. The Love that the Bible speaks of is the Love which God is and demonstrates.

Love, which is patient, kind, does not envy or boast, is not proud or rude, is not self-seeking or easily angered, and keeps no record of wrongs. This consummate Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres and never fails. (1 Cor 13:4-8) Perfect Love never changes (Malachi 3:6) and does not lie (1 Samuel 15:29, Titus 1:2).

I have searched with a contrite heart what truly discerning the body and blood of Jesus that was broken and poured out for me actually entails as I come to the communion table to partake in remembrance. This is so paramount to understand. It literally changes the way I walk out living.

“Each one must examine himself before he eats of the bread and drinks of the cup. For anyone who eats and drinks without recognizing the body eats and drinks judgment on himself. That is why many among you are weak and sick, and a number of you have fallen asleep.” (1 Corinthians 11:29)
But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.

I sense that when one truly discerns the body and blood of the Lord, a veil comes off from the heart and there is an “rendering of a veil that opens the conduit for extravagant love to flow in like a mighty gushing fountain. It happened to me, is all I can say about that.

Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom and is this not the glory of the New Covenant?
“For I would not, brothers, that you should be ignorant of this mystery, of the veiling of the heart as stated in Romans 11:25-27.

God has always kept a remnant that knows this. In these last days is He indeed not raising up a peculiar people that are so set apart in their hearts in a holy awareness and awe of who He is, who will become a mighty army to take back the land. I know that I am peculiar in a sense and some don’t know how to receive that and that is okay because I lost my reputation some time ago and people’s opinions no longer matter to me. I seem to be losing any desire to be affirmed by anyone or anything.

How Jesus feels is all that really matters. I just desire everyone begin to see Him with an unveiled heart. That is why I live to love. I can’t help to be any other way. Until you learn to love to live, you are not truly fully living at all in my estimation and are merely accepting less than God’s very best for you. I pray you can at least in part hear my heart in what I sensed needed to be expressed right now, here today.