I find myself at a truly pivotal moment in life where I am having to take a true assessment of what it actually means for me to fully answer the call of God, to present my body as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is my spiritual worship. I am not to be “conformed” to this world’s, or society’s standards, or mindful perceptions thereof, but rather I am be “transformed” by the renewal of my mind, that by testing therein I may discern what is the will of God, what is the good and acceptable and perfect expression of my life reflecting fully conformity to the the death of my Lord Jesus Christ which He already fulfilled on the cross.
Everything thing by which I have defined “who I am” is being taken to the cross. There is much being put to death at this moment so that I may come fully into life perhaps unrecognizable as to “who I have been”. So I may not be writing as frequently, as life as “I have known it”, is being eclipsed. I will do what I can to continue to journal my progression, however I cannot say how that will show up. I am being moved into experiencing new places, with new people, and new parameters in which how, where, and with whom I do life shows up much differently.
Therefore, having a newly defined ministry unfolding by the mercy of God, I do not lose heart. It does not fit inside any box. There is no cookie cutter or mold by which to craft it. God is doing a new thing. I am merely saying “yes” as I step into a totally new and unknown frontier for me. I adhere to a radical presentation of the true gospel of Jesus Christ. Unfiltered, unadulterated, as I believe God is calling out and raising up an end time church that will be fully true in every sense to the radiant presence and character of our Lord Jesus Christ. A people of God that will fully declare with their lives that we are to be as a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that we may proclaim the excellencies of him who called us out of darkness into his marvelous light.
(1 Peter 2:9) God has always preserved such a remnant, kept in store, throughout all of history, I believe for this hour.
Even if this gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. In their case the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelieving, to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. For what we are to proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as servants for Jesus’ sake. For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. (2 Corinthians 4:3-6 ESV)
However having this treasure in an earthly vessel of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. I may afflicted in many a way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body experiencing the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in my body and hence life. May such in my life seek to reflect this. For as one who lives in flesh is being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in this mortal flesh. So that death may be at work in me, but life rising forth in those that bear witness unto transformation.
Choosing to let go of the perception of life from solely the five senses and no longer rest in what is able to be physically seen and felt, may we take on the same spirit of faith according to what has been written, “I believed, and so I spoke,” we also believe, and so we also speak, knowing that he who raised the Lord Jesus will raise us also with Jesus and bring us with you into his presence. For it is all for your sake, so that as grace extends to more and more people it may increase thanksgiving, to the glory of God.
So may we do not lose heart. As the outer self is wasting away, the inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an “eternal weight of glory” beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:13-18)
That we may see and taste fully of the goodness of God. To so experience such, that “this” is what we sow into life in every breathing moment.
May I, by the grace of Jesus be freed from “the desire of” the following;
Being loved by others
Being promoted in life
Being preferred over any other
May I by the grace of Jesus be freed from the following:
The desire of being approved
From the fear of being humiliated
From the fear of being despised
From the fear of suffering rebukes
From the fear of being subjected to false statements
From the fear of being forgotten
From the fear of being ridiculed
From the fear of being wronged
From the fear of being suspected.
May the needs of others may be esteemed above what I feel that I need from life.
What I feel I need from life I will solely ask of God alone and from Him alone arrive at the fulfillment and satisfaction thereof.
There is but one name under heaven by which man may be freed from such and his name is Jesus.
My focus is to go after the 1 in 99; just as Jesus did and to forsake all else in order to attain the finishing of this race of life with fullness of joy, in knowing I have run well faithfully unto the very end, with a servant’s heart. My reason for living being “a harvest” that bears an eternal weight of glory “or knowing the goodness of the Father’s heart” to the extent this overshadows all the temporal in life. Wherein “what matters” is of “Eternal nature”.
I lay down at the foot of the Cross, “my own burdens” which are not mine to carry. Jesus already fulfilled such. That is why He came. May we no longer remain the same; but rather choose to fully bear “His Name”.