“What is Life”?

What is life? Is it not as a vapor that appears for a short time only to vanish away?

Here but for only as a moment, as man measures time. Do we not get stuck in and hung up on the temporal? I conclude that most of us do so to some extent.

That extent can become the measuring rod for what we call life; and can end up defining life for us. However, God is Eternal in nature. He states that we are created in His likeness.

Why do we not see through His eyes of Eternal perspective naturally? Is it simply because we do not allow ourselves to be truly born again by His Spirit; born of both water and Spirit?

I seemed to have lost the ability to think in complexity or detail. I must keep all my thinking quite basic and simple or I get lost in process of life and can not arrive at a place of making a decision for a next step. I wait and pray. I have pondered what to write. I have waited for a deeper message from God. There seems to be no deeper message than the simple Gospel; which is my conclusion.

Why has much of the world made life so complex? Simple and basic seem to hold little value for many in this day. Does one have to muster up an expression of uniqueness to be heard, seen or acknowledged as someone having something of value to offer to their world? Why does that matter so much? We forget so readily that “in Christ” we all hold the same intrinsic value. Is Jesus’ sacrificial work on the Cross no longer enough that we readily dismiss it to assume way of making a life for our self that is self centered or inward focus oriented? Why allow someone else to define who I am? I am who God says that I am.

Contemporary thinking seems to elude my understanding at times. Is it possible to lose one’s mind’s ability to function in contemporary conventionality? Yes, I conclude; sometimes this may be so. Is that a good thing? It depends on the reason for the question. Sometimes God’s call eludes our defining of it.

What happens when my thinking no longer meshes with what comprises the here and now that I see with my eyes and how I feel about such? It is then when the surrounding becomes so overwhelming that I simply must close my eyes and sit in silence. It is then when there is nothing to do but be still and then the Words of God can become so very clear.

As I listen now to old Gospel songs and hymns their message is so clear, concise, and to the point. Yet the world has moved on in the greater sense. The message of such music composition no longer deliverers to the soul of many it’s original message. Why is this? These lyrics are ever so clear that I wonder how can anyone miss their message? Why do we always have to seek some new thing? Sometimes I gloss over in what becomes too familiar. It loses meaning. I sense that the church has been infiltrated by and for the greater sense, a religious spirit. Has such pervaded our thinking over many years of time and rocked us to sleep unto the Eternal perspective that should by nature, direct in the spirit of a child of God?

Heaven calls to me in this moment more than ever and it is not a place one goes to. Heaven can be already present if one is “in Christ”. Heaven can be, I believe a state of being and not necessarily a destination. Jesus’ work on the Cross is full and complete and lacking nothing. Heaven must be introduced into wherever we are in life and into whatever place we may find ourselves in. Yet “there” conflict can arise.

Why does so much of the world find itself so far from what God defines as Heaven? Heaven feels so natural to me at this moment and it is as though now it beckons me to come and merge. The Spirit and the bride do say “come” indeed.

What happens when one dies to this world in order to embrace “Heaven” that God’s Word addresses? Is this “going home? Is there “a letting go” process so that one may return “home”? The functionality of the mind can pose many questions when it’s integrity becomes compromised; be it due to disease or the need to be transformed rather than continuing to conform. Then walking by the Spirit is the only way through. Therein one comes into the peace that passes all understanding when it feels like I’m losing all then becomes one of “gaining all” as in the Presence of the Lord is true liberty discovered.

If one is truly born again from above or “in Christ” they are Eternal in spirit and never really die. They merely leave the body at some point. To leave an aging and suffering body’s constraints is immense relief is it not? So why is so much effort spent to “achieve” the worldly goods within this life? Why can’t we be and remain in a perspective of Eternity in walking out life; where a sense of nothingness can be engulfed in a fullness? When death is arrested then one is truly free. He who the Son sets free is free indeed.

Life begins in the Presence of Jesus and there all else gains reason to matter and remain. In Him all is made new. So then, what holds significance and preeminence with you and I?

I hope that what I have stated here today amidst my questionings, applies in some way. It is the first prompting I have received to resume writing. I hope to continue as long as have capacity within me to express what I sense is being asked of me; a day at a time.

“All that You ever asked For”

You never asked me to be or do anything
But bring my heart to You, O my King.
There, may You rule and reign for all time,
What shall I say, what I shall bring?
I need not reach unto the sky for my heart to sing,
To obtain the things that neither man nor money can bring.
So why do I try and continually seek after signs of such thing?

All that You ever asked for, was my heart
My heart, losing its intricacies of life,
Embracing all of You; that’s all that really matters.
So why do I keep distant from such a real fine place to start?
In all simplicity tis’ my only real part.
Believing I have to rise to some greater art
When You never said I had to step
Upon broken rungs of by my own resign,
In hopes that something new they might offer to design.

You never asked me to complete the journey
All by myself, finding all I need without the complimentary help.
So why do I try to ascend unto the sky,
While there is a helpmeet standing ready by my side?
Oh, You never asked me to be a stand-alone.
To face the struggles all on my own,
So why do I try to obtain that which in You, is already mine?

When all that You ever asked for was my heart,
My heart, back to its childlike simplicity
Losing all the complexity I have gained along the way.
Seems like at times such a mighty task
Why do I feel I have to reach for the sky before I ask?
Believing I have to rise to something greater first
When All I ever needed has been the all the time.
These broken rungs cannot hold nor serve me any longer.
Seems it is time to release and let them go.
On new stepping stones I now choose to go.
Answers to many questions on this side of the picture
Are not mine at this time to know in point or juncture.

Because all they do is take my eyes off of You.
Help me forget the truth of what does not matter.
Beholding through the glass darkly through the eyes of grace,
From glory unto glory I shall embrace fully, then see face to face.

Silver and gold be not the harmony of such exchange.
Things of this world cannot arrange such basis and beauty,
Of such as I have and freely bring, as I have freely received.
Without money or price, exceeds a priceless treasure,
At greatest of cost by the Cross,
Purchased, renewed by the Saviour.
Richest of gain to receive, the letting go of what was lost.

All that You ever wanted was my heart
My heart; its intricacies fade into simplicity.
Life as a vapor, appears for a short time, soon to eclipse away.
A life transcends in child-like savor as there is only but today.
There is nothing to distress or dismay any longer,
Hope and faith arises as the best yet ever unfolds just yonder!

From “the Father to the fatherless”, I propose a hope and a future.

For those of you who read and follow this blog; this is not a teaching or sharing. It is a heartfelt request that I am making to each of you. Please read through to the end. It is as short and as to the point as I can make it.

It comes now to a time and place where I find myself at a crossroads as it were to address how I move forward with my life as God has called me to. For those of you who regularily read and follow this blog, you are aware of some the challenges that confront me in my life as I deal with an illness that the medical industry does not know how to diagnose let alone offer any answers as to how I can treat. I must develop a means to maintain my functionality in life. My spinal column is rapidly losing it’s mobility and flexibility. The core frame of the support structure in the body is slowly taking on the same deteriorating effects as the spine. My ability to walk in distance and time span continues to grow shorter. To lose this much active capacity in my life in such a short time has been beyond challenging. There are others much worse off than I, so I still count my blessings in what I have left to work with. Nevertheless I remain a medical mystery to the doctors that I have sought help from. They now suggest I go to a research facility such as the University of Washington. This is not accessible to me right now. I was placed on retirement Social Security which is limited since I am only 63, after being on disability for several years. This illness has taken it’s toll. My medical coverage is medicaid so I have not the means to seek the services of U.W. now and so my answers would have to “come out of pocket”.

I have in this interim found a couple of products that I can take in tandem into my body that restores in part some of my functionality and it relieves some of the excruciating pain I have to encounter which is similar to an advanced case of fibromyalgia which impacts my hips, neck, arms and legs. It has been a miracle through these products for me to able to retain a measure of functionality so I can continue my work in life which is right now pouring into the lives of others. I am so passionate when it it comes to helping others improve their quality of life. I have a huge heart for those who have been cast aside in life amidst societies woes. Yes, I long to be a repairer of the breech that helps bring back the underdogs in life and give them a new starting chance where traditional society offers little to none. I am starting a foundation to hopefully make a dent of impact in the lives of some of these. I am starting from a financial space from which I can hardly live on. Yet, I believe God to bring the people and resources so that I can multiply a gift within me that enables me to pour and invest into the lives of others in a unique way. This unexplained illness has opened to me experiences that have transformed my life deep within my heart.

The products I mention are not “cure-alls”. I make no medical claims. I only share my story and that of some others who are helped in similar ways. I use D.O.S.E.; a combination of a pill and a beverage. They work differently in each person. What I am asking you to consider doing is if this blog is a blessing, encouragement and inspiration to you in life then would consider helping to support the furthering of this ministry by purchasing some of the product? The cost is quite minimal actually. If you would please, take a look at the products I use and see if they might truly benefit you or someone in your life, it would help me to reach out and touch the lives of countless others to a greater measure. If so I have included the link below in addition to my email if you would connect with me for more information on this product or ministry which is in creating stage with the premise of “build it and they will come”. This will require partnership of others like yourselves who have a vision and a heart to invest even just a little. Here a little and there a little; I believe God will touch hearts and you will be blessed. If you happen to be in the same local proximity as I then I definitely welcome some interactive support as well. Simply contact me if so.

Now I desire to keep these posts as short as possible so may I quickly encapsulate one aspect of this ministry which is now a primary focus of this foundation. This is to train, equip and raise up a support base for fatherless children that are left in the wake of broken homes through divorce and premature widowhood. It is my premise that no woman be left to strive trying to carry the weight of being both mother and father. God never designed the woman to bear such. The child in such often begins to feel that they are isolated and unsupported and then they place an imposition upon their mom in which she in many cases is unable to meet. I’ve met too many who are in utter brokenness and despair. There are men who can help bridge that empty and unmet chasm. Men who can be repairers of the breech. The problem being many do not know how or where to start. That is where the ministry that I have engaged in comes in. I received the call to invest my life in this as a result of being part of a Divorce Care group to heal the remaining aftermath of divorce in my life from 14 years ago. This is such an unhealed wound in the heart of humanity. Now it seems I come across women continually who feel trapped and unable to be restored to love and be loved fully once again. When they heal they become some of the greatest testaments you will ever meet. So often where the small and seemingly insignificant which can be offered is declined in being acted upon because one person thinks “what could I possibly do make a difference”?. Therefore indifference can prevail like a cancer because we forget the power in a small choice and yes that choice may be a bit beyond the comfort zone. Until you and I and others like us take action it will likely be just more of the same.

God is a “Father of the fatherless and protector of widows is God in his holy habitation.” (Psalm 68:5)
Religion that is pure and undefiled before God the Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world.
(James 1:27)

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A Shelter Amidst the Storm

Throughout the night I tossed and turned within my soul. A restlessness seems to be prevailing seemingly from all directions; from my local world unto the more distant one. Yesterday as I was out to keep an appointment, a relentless deluge prevailed upon the city. Rivers of water ran down the streets and intersections were swamped in the pooling waters that had no place to go. Where I was anyway, this was the case. I must elect to commute via public transit and though dressed for being pummeled by the elements it seems I was having to dodge the intensity of the storm everywhere I turned.

As I waited for the bus following my appointment in the bus shelter across the street, cars passed by and the shelter was continually engulfed by waves of water thrown into the sides and back of the shelter from the rooster tails of spray from the passing vehicles. So I had to dodge in and out of the surges of backwash.

Finally the bus came and I had a respite. Then just several blocks down the road we came upon an accident scene. Full emergency response was present. There were two very mangled cars and the remains of a very distorted heap of twisted metal and glass shards of what used to be a bus shelter. I hoped no one had been waiting in that shelter and if it not for the grace of God I could have easily been there. I got on at the previous stop you see. This reflected what I am largely feeling in the world around me right now. This morning I decided at 3:33 AM that I was done with the tossing and turning of the night. I was directed to read Psalm 46 and to prayer.

“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling. “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!” The Lord of hosts is with us, the God of Jacob is our fortress. Selah.” (Think on that) Something seems to very off in the world right now. A yearning and cry for something greater beyond ourselves seems to be beckoning our attention. Things cannot remain in their present state. Yet it is not the designs of man that bring about a move of God. It will not come from outside of ourselves because the kingdom of God is “within us” we are told in the Word of God.

King of glory come, encircle and encompass as I surrender all. The weariness of the tempest that comes against soul of humanity beckons the penetration of Your Spirit. Deep calls unto deep amidst the noise of your waterspouts. Torrents of twisting currents tear against the soul.

I surrender all, I love You Lord, I love You Lord.
King of Heaven come and let Your presence surround.

Jesus, all my heart belongs, to You, Jesus; every heartbeat longs, for You!
Oh lover of my soul, pull me into Your arms forever; what can I say, what can I do?

It’s You and You alone, burning in my heart
Oh lover of my soul, you’re my one true love
Every breath is Yours, hear from within the greater song! On the keys of the instrument before me, Your spirit within trains my hands and fingers to war for the soul of humanity. As in Your breath Your Word resounds into the spheres.

A new sound is birthed and arises amidst the fray. Your presence pervades upon the atmosphere. Your Word be the standard here and mainstay becoming everywhere!

Blessing, glory, wisdom, thanksgiving, honor, power and might Be unto our God forever and ever. Amen!

Fill and consume this space as I only desire to be Your resting place.

For a tempest tossed world right now so needs the touch of Your grace.

O that Your goodness prevail and be seen in this and many a face.

Tis’ the way to Earth from Heaven You choose to come and prepare the way.

Jesus, You came so all could experience Your glorious majestic presence. You are Here! You are Here. Immanual, God with us; You are near. The word of faith; may it be nigh upon our lips and the fire of Your presence may it be kindled and burn bright within our midst! Be in us found a love of You ever so extravagant and radiant!

“The Drawing Call of Matchless Love”

I am reminded in Scripture that young men have visions, and old men have dreams. I am not quite sure where I fit, as Jesus came into my life during the late 1970’s. I have been caught up into both in recent months. Age-wise I’m sort of in the middle so it’s God’s call as to which, when, where and with whom application plays out. God never answers “how”. So just say “yes”. In my humanity it often leads me to be quite beside myself. I may come across as a bit “eccentric” to some at times. I’m okay with that. In the light of Jesus’ presence the need for man’s affirmations and recognition in me are being put to death increasingly at the foot of the cross. I crucify them continually. In humility, there is a call arising for me to speak/write and bring out in music what now must be spoken/written/sung. The Master calls me to such.

I have a present sense of urgency that there is more, beyond all that I presently know and understand, that I must yet apprehend. Not from outside myself, but from within, the unfathomable and unsearchable riches of Christ. In His mind. Christ in me, the hope of glory. Seated in heavenly places while walking out earthly steps.

I began to write from what I have been receiving at the first of this year here on this blog. I have drawn from nearly my entire life experience to portray on this page in response to what I have been receiving. In addition to my response, there enters into the picture, my reactions when my flesh hurts and grapples with what God asks of me. I will not ask of anyone what I am not first willing to first walk out myself. I have been asked to write, tell and share an unprecedented story of an ordinary man that has been given an extraordinary assignment to be put on open and transparent display before the eyes of the world as an open book to known and read by all whose hearts are open to a drawing call from the Spirit of God as a voice crying into the wilderness of the hearts of many. To come away in an unprecedented way, back to the Father’s heart and into the embrace of the One to whom to we the bride, truly belong, because His love has infinitely purchased us and there is the freedom of of a love within that relationship, that exceeds all loves.

So now it is time for me to start releasing in small bits at a time what the bride is being asked to awaken to, within the call from her Groom.
I sense and what I seem to be hearing God saying is, that He is doing a quick work to “make ready” a remnant that will connect with and to, in their hearts a call, to come apart, in response to a deeper call, that is unprecedented in the history of the human race. Not necessarily “new” in the physical sense since God’s Word being Eternal has always been and ever shall be, but a “newly experienced” one in the heart.

On a level where deep calls to deep, in unprecedented measure, penetrating to and dispersing the ordinary thought train of man, there arises a new breath of expression of the Bridegroom to His bride. A call to come away. So let us now focus solely on Jesus heart cry to his bride right now that there would be found, those of us who would begin the breathe the words “Draw me after You”. (Song of Solomon 1:4) There are three aspects of response to Him; this being the first.
“Draw me after You”. May this be the expressive response in the life you live as you breath this expression in and then back out; reciprocally in unbroken continuity. Call and response in reciprocal harmony sets the rhythmic heartbeat for heart to heart exchange of life. This is love from the Father’s heart.

Here a courtship commences with those of you who hear His call; simply come. Many are called but few chosen. God doesn’t do the choosing, but you and I do. It is the level of hunger that draws you and I into Him and this determines the measure of our “Yes” to Him. “Few there be that find or discover this” were Jesus’ words. A rare treasure. I don’t say this to discourage you but to open up very being to be more hungry for Him. Any of us can enter this; however how many are willing to pursue with relentless unprecedented passion? Jesus is “that jealous over your love”. Yet He awaits even as we affix and focus our love upon other points of preference. He understands, yet longs for us to “awaken fully unto Him”. I assure you this is a real place. I’ve tasted of His love and nothing can begin to compare.

Securing the Summit in the Ascent

This morning I find myself sitting with the same words that comprised my last blog. I hope and trust that there are those of you that are praying for and with me and will continue to do so. Please bear with me. I’ll keep this as brief as possible. I cannot be on here as consistently as I desire. I wish to keep those of you who choose to continue to follow with me in this adventure with God, “on board” in my day to day encounters with Him.

I write from the very experience that I live in the moment. Life can so readily overtake us and its burdens weigh us down to the extent we sometimes feel we cannot take another step. Let alone from the very place we may find ourselves where it becomes an arduous task, it feels almost impossible for the even most simple of tasks in life to work sometimes. We have all been there, haven’t we? Yet what do I look to in the end? It is the one thing that never has nor never will fail me; “the Wonderful grace of Jesus” that reaches me.

I am here for one reason and one reason only and that being; is to testify of His matchless and marvelous grace. My greatest apprehension in life in life being, is in the awareness that perhaps some of you out there have yet to touch the hem of His garment.

Some of you have yet to discover His grace and mercy touching your very lives right where you are at. If that is you then you perhaps you have no clue yet what you are missing if you continue to strive to take matters into your own hands. Please don’t make the mistake I did in waiting so long to reach out to Him and surrender your entire fight, battle and incomprehensible burdens. God never intended for you to bear that on your own. I pray that you can hear what is behind my words this morning.

I have shared with you many times that we are in a race in life; in which there is only one that can receive the prize at the end; “the one who finishes”. “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it. Every athlete exercises self-control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wealth, but we an imperishable. So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air. But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.
(1 Corinthians 9:24-27 ESV)

Within me my body right now is my greatest challenge. You probably get weary of hearing about it, however my life right now is my greatest illustration. Jesus fully purchased my healing on His Cross. Yet incomprehensible affliction may rise up and rage in my core physical frame. It continues to weaken and by the grace of God,I find a measure of strength in Him in intervals. I receive short minute bursts to face the simple tasks of walking out my divine story through just taking simple basic steps. However it doesn’t matter what I feel or see; the only thing that matters is Jesus’ promises to me. So yesterday I awoke to pain levels in the right side side of my body; namely the neck, shoulder and right hip radiating out, bringing tears to stream down my face as the mere lifting and moving of my right arm presented great challenge. Different days manifest differently in the body. There is no medical remedy available; doctors find nothing conclusive. I use a supplemental product God brought into my life that makes it possible to continue to take a next step beyond my comfort zone. This helps me to do a few basics certain days.

Anyway, to keep the story short a normal hour and a half mowing of my lawn yesterday turned into a four hour ordeal which I paced though inch by inch. It took hours of prayer to merely get myself out there and start. The lessons are more than the task itself; so I embrace the challenge for the rewards embedded within.

I finished, yet can’t explain exactly how. It is that as I’m out there, “in the trenches” I am walking with my Jesus. He spits the seas of resistance that mount up try their utmost to press in and hold me down and back. Yet I “keep moving”. I don’t stop. I don’t quit, ever. If I were to give in to the opposition, I would be done in life. I will plow through to the very end. I know not the number of my days. I have however enormous huge vision and dream. (Believe it or not, I still carry a vision to “mountain climb”. With God, all things are possible to those who believe.) If I remain faithful, endeavoring to “build it”, then “they will come”. Others who need what I have with my Jesus will hear and see and come partner with me. This I believe firmly. God has spoken very clearly and distinctly with me on this. We are not to do it alone any longer my friends. God is overturning the apple cart in how we do life. No more “lone rangers” or “self-made men and women”. It is all centered and based in relationship and partnership. We need each others’ pieces to this mosaic. This is kingdom principled and this “is” my “Father’s world” and belongs to His Son Jesus. May He increase as I decrease.

This product I use in my body is I believe a gift from God. I simply want to help others who may be able to benefit from it’s qualities as I have. I am endeavoring to create a platform of business/ministry so I can continue reach out and simply help people to open avenues through which they may experience the “wonderful grace of Jesus”, where life meets them in the road.

It is challenging for me to ask others for help. Many simply do not understand where I operate from right now. I used to have active periods in my life which have now eclipsed to nil to none. My skill sets are now a huge challenge to facilitate into practical productive means as my dependability to physically walk out basics wax and wane, and this effects my cognitive across the board. So I guess in a way, I”m an underdog writing my story as I live it before the eyes of the world “as it were”.

My every moment is a journey of grace. I am trying to build a web presence since I can no longer get out much. I learn by trial and error since being able “pay other’s” is not really an option for me in most cases. I am merely doing my best to make my intrinsic value visible. I give value for value and then some; just not in the way some would expect. It takes everything to maintain my health. May my testimony be an encouragement to someone out there. I do what I do as unto Jesus. I trust that in God’s plan there are perhaps out there among some of you, who perhaps would consider partnering in this process as God speaks to you. May His will be done here on Earth as it is in Heaven. He desires for Heaven to be touching Earth; so may you please keep open hearts.

“And I am no longer in the world, but they are in the world, and I am coming to you. Holy Father, keep them in your name, which you have given me, that they may be one, even as we are one.” (John 17:11) May we bear this in mind and endeavor to “be one” in our Father’s love. I encourage you to sit with Jesus’ prayer in John 17.

If you wish to correspond with me then you may do so at brianjm777@gmail.com.
If you have read this far and remained with me then I thank you for taking the time to hear my heart. I merely am doing my best to keep all transparent and hopefully cohesive. May God bless you!

A slice of Surreal in Light of Eternity

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven.(Ecclesiastes 3:1)

I write at all times, totally transparent from where and how life shows up to me; good and bad alike. You will see me at my best and worst of times.

It feels like I now stand in a moment where it seems that no one cares or sees. As no one seems to take note of my most earnest plea. When no certain answers seem to come unto me. As resources seem to dry up and cease to be enough for sufficiency. When infirmity is overcome only to be replaced with yet more adverse diversities; I will lift up to my eyes unto the hills and see. From what comes my help?

Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines,

The produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food,

The flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls,

Yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation.

God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer’s; he makes me tread on my high places. (Habakkuk 3:17-19) My Portion, my Strength, my High Tower, and my Rock. I stand right now solely by faith, and faith alone.

I cannot see in my physical senses a way through in this moment. Jesus is however my way maker as when I feel there is nothing left to fight with. In the natural my tendency would be to give up. I’m tired and weary from all the rise and fall of the breakers of the sea that assault me relentlessly. But I’m in a race, you see. One I must finish.

I’m just being real and true. I still get ensnared by what I feel and see, and like some of you, may have moments that raise the questions of; when shall I ever cling to the taste the victory in all of this? It is like one thing after another, relentlessly pummeling me into the ground.

A time when all around is me seems to be silent and filled with moments where I feel utterly cast down, yet know I am not forsaken.

A time when the joy of the Lord is to be my strength. Yet it seems not readily within reach at the moment. May it fully be restored in Jesus’ name.