When Faith gets Real as Real Gets

Dear readers, there are circumstances in my life at this moment that I cannot find explanation for. I have some medical issues on my plate now that are very overwhelming. I have lost what appears to be about 50% of the of the strength and capaciity of my arms, legs and hands and cognitive is apparently impaired as well. I been through less severe episodes previously over the last several years. Before and now; a medical mystery; doctors have no answers and some even hint at it being all in my head. Maybe I have impairment in the brain that doesn’t fit medical text books.

I don’t want to lose touch with you all. It is challenging for me to type this. For those of you who believe God for who He says He is, I ask you to pray for God’s intervention and healing touch. He gave me a vision and dream that I still believe Him for. Just may have to have to walk it out differently. Before February 2016 I did not have my faith. I do now and it is unwavering. It does not matter what I feel or see; I rest and trust in Jesus wholly and completely and His promises to me. He gave an assignment in this life and I will still walk it out even if some things have to change in the “how to”. I will see about going to video so I can continue to connect easier with those that may be willing to continue follow me. The use of my hands makes writing challenging right now. So my frequency in doing is unsure at this time. I got help to get this out. Will stay in touch. I may need some hands and feet and minds to assist. This is what I write about for months that brothers and sisters in Christ, that we be one. That we serve one another fully as needed. Well your support would appreciated. Just ask God what He would have you do if you feel so inclined. If you find value in what I share. I hope you will at least pray with me that God’s will be carried out. This be all I can say now. I will continue as able with God’s guidance. I don’t what to do with all this but I will not give up. I do not quit. I have a race to run and plan to finish well in at least God’s eyes. Even though people sometimes don’t understand His ways. I am to share my entire journey with the world because my assignment from God remains. He does not change. So I continue. God bless.

In the Light of God’s Presence

Darkness cannot stand in the Light of the Presence of God. Jesus literally makes the darkness tremble. I can personally bear witness to this right now. Our minds don’t want to believe this sometimes, however, thoughts can be overshadowed and overwritten.

I am surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses as to what is taking place in my body in regards to the healing I have already received by faith in Jesus who has anchored this in His finished work on the cross. In particular most recently, within the local ecclesia that I am partnered with, I can attest that a significant witness surrounds me in this testimony. Not a single one of us is​ meant to feel like we are standing alone. You are not alone. I do not wish to see any of you being isolated. Jesus left the “99′ to go after the “one”. There is no exception to this here and now.

“And we have the prophetic word more fully confirmed, to which you will do well to pay attention as to a lamp shining in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts,” (1 Peter 1:19) Every promise from God​ is yes and to every promise “Amen”. The dawning brightness “is” transcending the darkness.

Here, there are are some of you that may be presently experiencing what “I sense to be an unprecedented moving of God’s Spirit”. That may be experienced​ as the most critical areas or issues in our lives seemingly​ getting intense and under attack from multiple fronts. This may be quite far from rose-colored vision and certainly​ not an easy, soft warm blanket experience that you might expect. The heat is up! Our first response might be to get out of the kitchen if we can’t take the heat. Let’s talk about that kitchen today.

The dinner table is a lost art in America. Let us look for a moment at what that experience​ truly reflected and thus represented.

I can remember fifty years ago, growing up in an era when my family life was centered around the​ dinner meal at the kitchen table. My mother worked in the kitchen for many long hours, many times preparing meals, of which I helped with, wherein the atmosphere for the meal was prepared in love and conversation that formed and help shape my life through the preparation and enjoyment of good​ food that fully satisfied the soul-centered experience around those meals at the table.

Then I might add in here the shopping trips that she invested in to select and gather the ingredients for those meals. What is that? That is called process. Do you know what God is doing most with me right now? It is the painstaking adventure of learning to be patient with the process. The gathering and investment of the ingredients. The profit in life comes through the process. Excellence comes out of worthy investment into character. No instant potatoes anymore​. I have to wait and my mind tries to tell me that it is simply being baited for enticement towards that “carrot” that I shall never get to fully enjoy. Such impatience and impetus reactions my friends ​signifies​ a mindset embedded in cleverly hidden lies. I have been conditioned through life to want what I want and to demand to see it show up right now. My parents, while I​ was growing up, invested in the process and worked painstakingly​ hard to stay ahead and they always were moving and seldom sedentary. They were not perfect and had their “issues” as well however they were often pouring into and blessing others because they put the needs of others ahead of their own. I, fortunately,​ retained some of that “while” being conditioned by this present world.

I most recently re-discovered what it is to live once again in the innocence, simplicity, ​and trust of a child resting in my heavenly​ “Father’s arms and loving embrace. He has me. Yet my mind doesn’t always “get” that and resists and wants to cling to old comfort zones that feel “easy”.

The real problem in America today is that we only think on our own terms. Few want to consider much beyond this. Within that, ​we can get stuck in our own imagination and limit ourselves thereby. God wants us to do “more than we can imagine”.
The atmosphere​ of the miraculous is actually cultivated by our hunger for God to bring us into true life-changing​ transformation. That is what this blog is about. Is this not what we have been exploring?

How about saying “God, Your way is better than my way. I believe that as high as the heavens are above the earth, so are Your ways higher than my ways. Your thoughts are higher than my thoughts. Even if I don’t get to attain what is put in front of me, I will yield to You.”

What do you feel needs to show up in your experience​ to satisfy your sense of well being? Ponder that if you will. Do you insist on certain “itches” in your emotional response field to be ticked? More of the same bringing you no gain? Or maybe what you truly desire deep down within is having a fire of passion ignited for desires that reflect an essence of something far greater than your life reflects at this moment. What would inspire you to reach for something​ more? What does a better version of you afford to offer if you would say “YES” to your “all and nothing less” offered up to God?

Is God showing you what to do and/or where to be at a given time? Are there relationships that He has put or allowed in your life to cultivate a process that you perhaps need to experience to move into a better version of you​? Are you willing to hold your ground and just keep “showing up”, no matter what? Because as you do, God’s Presence is about to meet you in a fullness you have never to this day, seen the likes of. I believe Him for this and for you to enter into this with me.

Can you show up “more hungry” for His presence than you have ever been? It’s not about putting on a show because God knows our hearts. There is nothing to work up or usher in. You already have all of Jesus in you. Are you fully “in Him? Just receive what He has already given you. He has already instilled in​ you the ingredients to kindle that desire for Him. Just be real “with Him” and not “seeking what He can do for you”.

If your belief level is challenged, then tell Him so and ask Him to help you keep moving even amidst your unbelief and “be willing to believe”. No matter what!
Will you just believe God? Can you be willing to be reconstructed “in the Father’s hands”?​ Is your life “moldable” clay that you are willing to surrender to be reshaped?

I know my God is in control and His purpose is unshakable.
It doesn’t matter what I feel or what I see;
My faith, hope, ​and trust will always be in His promises to me.
I’m casting out all fear, for His love has set me free, and my hope will always be in His promises to me.

As I walk through this day; I say “Amen” to every promise He has given me.
I will not forget what He has done, for He has already supplied my every need whether I can see or not.

Will you join me in a resolve​ to approach God​ and say “I repent of my perceived limitations and I​ want what You say belongs​ to me;​ I want that more than anything else!” When you are that hungry​ for His Presence moving in your very being, then you will receive.

He will do this for you and I if we will believe and trust Him.

Reproof, Mercy and Direction

​Do we ever come to end of ourselves? That sounds like a loaded question, right? It is certainly a two-sided one.

“Therefore if anyone is in Christ (that is, grafted in, joined to Him by faith in Him as Savior), he is a new creature (reborn and renewed by the Holy Spirit); the old things (the previous moral and spiritual condition) have passed away. Behold, new things have come (because spiritual awakening brings a new life)”.
(2 Corinthians 5:17 Amplified)

When you say “yes” to Jesus you take on a new identity just as when a woman is married to a man she releases her maiden name and takes on the name of her husband. As the years together are experienced as one with her husband, she forgets her old identity she carried as a single woman as she chose from the moment she said “I do”, a new life for her began. The former days in the old identity are overshadowed by the latter and the former fades into a distant memory. I share this analogy​ as I observe​ a couple I know in ministry that has​ nearly 30 years together and to me are a very example of the relationship between Jesus and His bride; the relationship you and I are designed by God to choose to live, move and have our being in.

We see the other side of the coin in this example and that being that in order to take on a new identity to walk out the story God wrote for each of us we do indeed have to come to the end of ourselves in order to say “I do” or “yes” to God when we choose Jesus, we are to let go of entirely the reliance and dependence on who we think we are and can be focused​ on​ our self. Jesus says “without me, ​ you can do nothing”.

Have you or do ever felt or feel that you are called to something greater? Greater than as you see yourself right now? Does there seem to be something standing in the way and blocking you from moving into that? Perhaps you carry a dream and vision inside of you that is bigger than you?

That is true for most of us. At some point in our lives we ponder such, don’t we?

God wrote such a story for your life. You need Him and you need the ​partnership of other people in your life to bring together all the ingredients thereof or all the pieces to a grand puzzle that if you try to figure it all out on your own you will never enter the grand theater orchestrated by the Author and Finisher of your faith in the greatest show on Earth which your life is destined to have an influential​ role in.

“I appeal to you, ​therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect”. (Romans 12:1,2 ESV)

We are “tested” by the Word of God. Are you willing to allow Him to transform you?​ Then choose to no longer conform to a way of living that is contrary to His Word that actually takes you away from your divine destiny. Are you open to course correction?

I appeal to you right now; “will you believe God”? Or are you going to trust in your ability to figure and work it all out for yourself? Do you continue to play Russian Roulette with your life or​ will you bank your trust upon a sure, tried and true foundation by taking God at His Word?

I know where I stand and that I have a Divine Master Architect​ at the helm of my ship with all the blueprints​ in hand and his name is Jesus. Do you hold in your heart; broken promises, dreams and vision that you feel have let you down in life? Failure is not final. It points you toward faith, hope, ​and trust; that you can trade in the “shattered” for a new “sure and sheltered”. I choose Eternity​; what do you choose?

“If you turn at my reproof, behold, I will pour out my spirit to you; I will make my words known to you”. (Proverbs 1:23 ESV

May you choose wisely. God bless you!

Foundations that Remain and Truly Serve

Today I am going to attempt to begin to address foundations that are anchored in faith, forged in consecration, pursued with dedication and committed unto transformation. These are then purposed into steps of presentation into real life where the rubber meets the road as it were; in relationships. I am in the process of cultivating relational excellence in my life. This is just part of the process of a much grander picture. So let us begin.

It may initially appear that I am going out on a limb as it were with some of what I must state for a record. I am in the midst of an encounter with God that exceeds what my mind can grasp, so this this morning as one who meets with Jesus face to face and encounters His love beyond measure; I commence to share that which He asks me to.

I began this day which can be humanly expressed as one where the only action one can take in an encounter such as mine, which is to lay their entire being at his feet. It was then to be enabled to take up life again; that life fully “in Him” resume “the walk”. However this is in a very polar opposite of what I was conditioned to believe what “walking out” life meant. When one rises up from laying prostate in his presence which felt as though it was eternity which would never end and it does never end most certainly, because the only I step I can take now is to allow my humanity to melt into His Presence and somehow continue to be. There has been a death of what previously stood in my way. That which was the basis of compromise which I could no longer allow to be part of who I am. There shall be more that must taste death; so that life may spring forth. That process shall never end until Jesus returns.

Before this morning I truly had no concept of what true faith actually consists of and therefore calls me to.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.
(Hebrews 11:1)

What does this actually mean to me now? I have carried a hope and vision that in my mind had me shaking in my boots. I have been given immense vision by God and my dreams and my conscious day time visions are as vivid as the life I walk and I am called to make the two as one. May I put it poetically; I’ve established covenant in the heavenlies to anchor every phase and aspect of what I have seen and been shown into earthly practical steps and to bring the two into a physical marriage as it were. I am not speaking hypothetically but literally. Whatsoever we bind on earth has already been bound in heaven. What we loose on earth has already been loosed in heaven. So I move into new lands this morning to reclaim what has been stolen. I do so boldly and tenaciously now but yet the human part of me carries apprehension. I’m not giving place to fear, just acknowledging what comes natural in the process.

Please stay with me here and listen to what I have been directed to lay out this morning. I’ve pondered this for some time considering if I would I be deemed crazy for stating by faith that which may seem to be preposterous by declaring it as so and living as though it is already a living,breathing and fully-in-place reality.

My God calls things that are not as though they were so as I am in His likeness, how can I do any less? Just because my physical eyes do not bear witness to what all the rest of my being is vehemently claiming that is right before me, and though no person is speaking the words to affirm what my soul knows so well as being so, yet I cannot escape the fact the the vision and dream is coming to life.

It is birthing and breathing the breath of God into dry bones that had pretty much given up in my walk of life until the fire of the Presence of God touched my soul. I met my Jesus face to face and I am still alive in this body to write from my experience and how; oh how indeed am I even doing so? His presence has literally consumed who I was and now He asks me to carry His Presence in a new way into the world I walk in. Just how? Well no more questioning, I simply must and I do not care about anyone else’s opinion on the matter. I know what “He wants and asks” and I am prepared to step into it fully no matter how crazy it may sound to my own mind. Yes, my mind says it is impossible; you just don’t do things this way. But yes, I do, from this moment forward do so, in a new way. With God all things are possible to those who believe.

Let me just state that no one, and I mean no one, carries the depth and level of love for you and I that Jesus does. I stand in utter humility before Him and I can longer see myself but all I can see is Him and all I can sense is Him and the hearts of the ones he has brought into my life with whom I must be “one with” as Jesus is “with” me.

What I ask and and pray is that you may see that we are all truly one and I mean that literally. (Read John 17) It no longer matters what I feel and see physically because that is merely a fraction of the picture. It is a very limited perception. Please do not let that alarm you. I must simply love you as Jesus loves me. I can only demonstrate that with the life I walk out so be prepared to be immersed in love because it is a tide of torrential flow I can longer hold back; not now. Relax, I shall be gentle though fierce as a lion with determination. This is the river of His love. I embody “Zion’s River” and it is not a limited to a place or a building but it is a way of life. That is why I am here right now and it just so happens that I do associate with a physical place by the same name. Imagine that? To some of you who walk and serve with me in physical life this may convey to you a distinct message. Well, all I can ask is that you and I listen to the Spirit of God and follow in the footsteps of Jesus.

Do you carry an offence in your heart right now with anyone else in your life far or near? Then please release it now. We do not have time to hold on such. It is not worth whatever you think it it is. This applies to circumstances that surround you; not judging them, and please cease from judging your fellow brother or sister. So you perceive they hurt or wounded you? We are human and we falter. We say things we can never take back, but we can seek forgiveness from each other and have our hearts be healed and restored. How can we justify continuing to hurt and wound one another by remaining in an offence? Let alone how it hurts the heart of Jesus that perhaps you are witholding from surrendering this to him. He won’t force you but He waits for you; right now. Why continue to resist? It is not worth hanging on to.

I am addressing someone specifically here. You likely read this blog at times. This offence is between you and another and so I have pleaded in intercession for you two continually and the others it impacts and now I implore you to let go of this offence please. Don’t continue to hold on to it. The pain shows in your face. It hurts my heart. I am moved to say what I must. I observe you continually. I see the resistance you put up and so does Jesus. Nothing is worth hanging on tenaciously to such an extent. I have not named names and shall never do so but I shall reflect the love of our Saviour as He asks me to. There are many interceding for you I sense that somewhere inside you know what you need to do. Please don’t tarry.

I have been asked to take a side trail here today obviously and I shall resume where I left off at with laying out the nature of the true “why” of this blog and “where” it is perhaps taking us. In the next writing may we explore the foundation of love in faithful action that leads unto transformation. This leads us to where we can discover how to remain in the Presence of God as we walk out the story he has written for each of us to walk out. It is an “all in the moment” journey is it not?