“All that You ever asked For”

You never asked me to be or do anything
But bring my heart to You, O my King.
There, may You rule and reign for all time,
What shall I say, what I shall bring?
I need not reach unto the sky for my heart to sing,
To obtain the things that neither man nor money can bring.
So why do I try and continually seek after signs of such thing?

All that You ever asked for, was my heart
My heart, losing its intricacies of life,
Embracing all of You; that’s all that really matters.
So why do I keep distant from such a real fine place to start?
In all simplicity tis’ my only real part.
Believing I have to rise to some greater art
When You never said I had to step
Upon broken rungs of by my own resign,
In hopes that something new they might offer to design.

You never asked me to complete the journey
All by myself, finding all I need without the complimentary help.
So why do I try to ascend unto the sky,
While there is a helpmeet standing ready by my side?
Oh, You never asked me to be a stand-alone.
To face the struggles all on my own,
So why do I try to obtain that which in You, is already mine?

When all that You ever asked for was my heart,
My heart, back to its childlike simplicity
Losing all the complexity I have gained along the way.
Seems like at times such a mighty task
Why do I feel I have to reach for the sky before I ask?
Believing I have to rise to something greater first
When All I ever needed has been the all the time.
These broken rungs cannot hold nor serve me any longer.
Seems it is time to release and let them go.
On new stepping stones I now choose to go.
Answers to many questions on this side of the picture
Are not mine at this time to know in point or juncture.

Because all they do is take my eyes off of You.
Help me forget the truth of what does not matter.
Beholding through the glass darkly through the eyes of grace,
From glory unto glory I shall embrace fully, then see face to face.

Silver and gold be not the harmony of such exchange.
Things of this world cannot arrange such basis and beauty,
Of such as I have and freely bring, as I have freely received.
Without money or price, exceeds a priceless treasure,
At greatest of cost by the Cross,
Purchased, renewed by the Saviour.
Richest of gain to receive, the letting go of what was lost.

All that You ever wanted was my heart
My heart; its intricacies fade into simplicity.
Life as a vapor, appears for a short time, soon to eclipse away.
A life transcends in child-like savor as there is only but today.
There is nothing to distress or dismay any longer,
Hope and faith arises as the best yet ever unfolds just yonder!

“Boundary Lines that Limit Faith”

It seems that after about a week of time of time I am beginning to see some light at the end of a tunnel. A tunnel of uncertainty and one of simply waiting upon God for clarity to come. I stated in my last post “Transitioning Into True Transformation”, that there seems to be unfolding, a newly defined ministry by the mercies of God, through my current set of circumstances that I have not been able to fully see, let alone understand. Yet I do not lose heart. While it may seem that I am losing ground through the looking glass of my known perceptions, truly I am gaining new ground upon the precipice of new lands in frontier unknown to me. It does not fit inside any box of the familiar. There is no cookie cutter or mold by which to craft it. God is doing a new thing. I am merely saying “yes” as I step into a totally new and unknown frontier for me. I came across a post made by Frank Damazio a few days ago which states “Push the boundary lines that limit faith. Your current safe boundaries were once unknown frontiers.” This made me stop and ponder a few observations.

I always am and always shall be pushing on the limits of my level of faith. Those limits never leave me feeling comfortable. There is never a place in which I can arrive at and feel that I have “attained”. There shall always be “a next step” to take that will be calling me into “the uncomfortable”. Something I will have to contend and fight for. Faith is continually on the rise as the heat of the fire of God is increasing. Are you perhaps as well right sensing that you are fighting for unknown territory in your life right now? You “will” step into that as you realize that you are not in bondage. You are free! And why do I say that? Because “For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.” (Galatians 5:1 ESV)

It is religious thinking that holds us back. We can become enslaved in a religious spirit and not even be aware of it. God is not distant and humanity does not need to “do anything” to draw His attention toward us. Christ’s love already totally fulfilled us in every sense at the Cross. There is nothing missing or lacking. Jesus already died to erase all of what we may perceive to be “in our way”. Whatever it is that we may be hanging on to, has already forgiven and paid for in Jesus’ name!

“I came that they may have life and have it abundantly”. (John 10:10) “Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father. Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it. (John 14:12-14) Jesus speaks here of greater works beyond what we believe to be possible to come through us.
“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” (Philippians 1:6 ESV)
He has already deposited gifting and talent within us that are beyond our own capabilities. So have you or I put any such on the shelf simply because we could not see any way through to proceed with it? I know I can say I have and I choose to pick it back up once again and dare to believe God for what I may feel is impossible. Saying “I don’t know how” is not something I can sit in any longer.

So what calls me forward in a bold act of faith? For me it is a matter of the measure of love behind that act. It is not based in ‘what is in it for me”, but rather to what degree am I compelled out of love to move toward that unknown, to touch the heart and life of another because “the love of Christ” compels me beyond my own desire?

I am not “needing to be loved” in order “to love”. I am infinitely loved and the ones I am drawn to, carry the same intrinsic value as I. My “unknown” does not need to meet anyone’s approval or measure up to anyone’s standard. It is God’s business, not mine. It is not I who seeks to be consulted; but rather it is ‘Christ in me” the hope of glory, who comforts all their affliction, and so that you or I may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. (2 Corinthians 1:3-5) My ongoing rise and fall tempest with my physical health on stormy seas interspersed with calm havens are nothing more than equipping for what lies ahead. Therein is increase so that others may also enter into that increase in their lives.

Therein I lose the fear of being humiliated, being despised, suffering rebukes or correction, being subjected to false statements, being forgotten, being ridiculed, being wronged or of being suspected. It is not about me, but rather it about about esteeming others’ above my own needs. I am fully met in the fullness of Jesus. It may not always feel as such and I may not be able to physically see “yet” much of anything, however perfect love casts out all fear.
“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.” (1 John 4:18 ESV)

Will you believe with me that that next person your or my life touches, the one we pray for, and our next act of worship will “tip the scales” to shake the ground of circumstance by releasing the power and presence of the One we carry within? Will we choose to walk in a radical love and live a radical life?

Transitioning into True Transformation

I find myself at a truly pivotal moment in life where I am having to take a true assessment of what it actually means for me to fully answer the call of God, to present my body as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is my spiritual worship. I am not to be “conformed” to this world’s, or society’s standards, or mindful perceptions thereof, but rather I am be “transformed” by the renewal of my mind, that by testing therein I may discern what is the will of God, what is the good and acceptable and perfect expression of my life reflecting fully conformity to the the death of my Lord Jesus Christ which He already fulfilled on the cross.

Everything thing by which I have defined “who I am” is being taken to the cross. There is much being put to death at this moment so that I may come fully into life perhaps unrecognizable as to “who I have been”. So I may not be writing as frequently, as life as “I have known it”, is being eclipsed. I will do what I can to continue to journal my progression, however I cannot say how that will show up. I am being moved into experiencing new places, with new people, and new parameters in which how, where, and with whom I do life shows up much differently.

Therefore, having a newly defined ministry unfolding by the mercy of God, I do not lose heart. It does not fit inside any box. There is no cookie cutter or mold by which to craft it. God is doing a new thing. I am merely saying “yes” as I step into a totally new and unknown frontier for me. I adhere to a radical presentation of the true gospel of Jesus Christ. Unfiltered, unadulterated, as I believe God is calling out and raising up an end time church that will be fully true in every sense to the radiant presence and character of our Lord Jesus Christ. A people of God that will fully declare with their lives that we are to be as a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that we may proclaim the excellencies of him who called us out of darkness into his marvelous light.
(1 Peter 2:9) God has always preserved such a remnant, kept in store, throughout all of history, I believe for this hour.

Even if this gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. In their case the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelieving, to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. For what we are to proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as servants for Jesus’ sake. For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. (2 Corinthians 4:3-6 ESV)

However having this treasure in an earthly vessel of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. I may afflicted in many a way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body experiencing the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in my body and hence life. May such in my life seek to reflect this. For as one who lives in flesh is being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in this mortal flesh. So that death may be at work in me, but life rising forth in those that bear witness unto transformation.

Choosing to let go of the perception of life from solely the five senses and no longer rest in what is able to be physically seen and felt, may we take on the same spirit of faith according to what has been written, “I believed, and so I spoke,” we also believe, and so we also speak, knowing that he who raised the Lord Jesus will raise us also with Jesus and bring us with you into his presence. For it is all for your sake, so that as grace extends to more and more people it may increase thanksgiving, to the glory of God.

So may we do not lose heart. As the outer self is wasting away, the inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an “eternal weight of glory” beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:13-18)
That we may see and taste fully of the goodness of God. To so experience such, that “this” is what we sow into life in every breathing moment.

May I, by the grace of Jesus be freed from “the desire of” the following;
Being loved by others
Being promoted in life
Being honored
Being praised
Being preferred over any other
Being consulted

May I by the grace of Jesus be freed from the following:
The desire of being approved
From the fear of being humiliated
From the fear of being despised
From the fear of suffering rebukes
From the fear of being subjected to false statements
From the fear of being forgotten
From the fear of being ridiculed
From the fear of being wronged
From the fear of being suspected.

May the needs of others may be esteemed above what I feel that I need from life.
What I feel I need from life I will solely ask of God alone and from Him alone arrive at the fulfillment and satisfaction thereof.

There is but one name under heaven by which man may be freed from such and his name is Jesus.

My focus is to go after the 1 in 99; just as Jesus did and to forsake all else in order to attain the finishing of this race of life with fullness of joy, in knowing I have run well faithfully unto the very end, with a servant’s heart. My reason for living being “a harvest” that bears an eternal weight of glory “or knowing the goodness of the Father’s heart” to the extent this overshadows all the temporal in life. Wherein “what matters” is of “Eternal nature”.

I lay down at the foot of the Cross, “my own burdens” which are not mine to carry. Jesus already fulfilled such. That is why He came. May we no longer remain the same; but rather choose to fully bear “His Name”.

“The Higher Calling”

In recent days in an ever increasing pronounced way, I sense that God is calling us to believe and trust Him for a measure of faith that will lift us up beyond where and how we have ever experienced life before. A new frontier, new lands where none of us have ever gone before or even ventured.

This being beyond our self realized concept of who we “think that we are”. A place where our “being right” no longer matters, where we can just let that fall aside and run off us like water from a ducks back. Where trivial things no longer hold importance and where our highest priority becomes that of esteeming our brothers and sisters needs, which include all who cross our path, to be above the importance of our own. Where we focus on truly loving and caring for one another genuinely. It is being who “God” says that we are.

“But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light”. (1 Peter 2:9 ESV)

As sons and daughters of the most high God, under the reign of Christ, God sees only one race; sharing one inheritance.

A priesthood of royal descent purchased by the King of Kings and Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ. A called out people to intercede for and serve all peoples. We come not to be served, but seek and and help restore that which is lost.
“And those from among you will rebuild the ancient ruins; and you will raise up the age old foundations; and you will be called repairer of the breach; the restorer of streets in which to dwell. (Isaiah 58:12)

Rebuild the broken households and families. Restore the structured unity in our neighborhoods and community and in the doing of business therein. Restore the values that most of society has let go of, abandoned or no longer embrace and adhere to. Where as men in our community we help uphold the single moms in common decent measures to encourage their healing and restoration. And wherein as men being better men as a result raising a higher standard as the protectors and uplifting of the well being of those God has placed in our sphere of influence and thus care and responsibility. Then our streets will be once again a place of peace and safety where true community is nurtured. I sense you get where I am going with this and are beginning to get a picture of a people with a hope and a future.

A people who possess and carry the very presence of God where ever we are and life takes us. Proclaiming and emanating His excellence; the character of Christ. Because we have been called out of darkness and into His marvelous light.

Here is where I have chosen to set my sights. Consider the one who calls you who also will do it. You merely have to say “yes”. Only believe and step out and up into may be a stretch beyond your comfort zones. Do it anyway because you are destined for something much greater than where you stand right now.

“The Trial and Testimony of Life”

Cast your bread upon the waters for you shall see it after many days. These words in today’s accompanying picture ring so true in me at this stage in life. True and steadfast is God’s promise unto me. I can hold true and align my life with His promise. Even though my body fail me over and over and time and time again. This morning in the midst of a constant rise and fall, I remain committed to stand faithful to His promise that the work He has begun in me will be completed in and by His hand. He is faithful to complete that work. Even though some of the people in my life let me down and circumstances come to kill, steal and destroy what I left in my hands to work with, my candle is not yet extinguished. “Faithful is that calls me who also will do it”.
(1 Thessalonians 5:4).

Praise the LORD! For it is good to sing praises to our God. Sing to the LORD with thanksgiving. He builds up, He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. He is abundant in power and his understanding is beyond measure. So we can thus glean from Psalm 47.

What does He take delight in when it it comes to essence of your life and mine?
His delight is not in the strength of the horse nor his pleasure in the legs of a man, but the LORD takes pleasure in those who fear him, in those who hope in his steadfast love. (Christ in me; the hope of glory. I will glory only in the Cross). I choose to die daily and continually to all else.

He called and commissioned me to first and foremost preach the gospel of Jesus Christ. What else matters? All else in life serves around why I am here. How I show up is an illustration of such. I pour the the Living Word of God into the lives of others. This be my livelihood; my living hope. What is my life but as a vapor that appears but for a short and time and then to vanish away? For all my days are passed away: spending my years as a tale that is told. The days of my years may be threescore years and ten; and if by reason of strength they be fourscore years, yet is their strength labor and sorrow; for it is soon cut off, and I fly away.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” (Psalm 90)

They that go down to the sea in ships; And occupy their business in great waters; These men see the works of the Lord: and his wonders in the deep. (Psalm 107:23)
Captivity in disease or adversity can be as dangerous and alarming as a dreadful tempest at sea; with a most natural and striking description of which we are here presented. Life can rise on the highest wave only then to be engulfed in it’s aftermath.

For he commands, and raises the stormy wind, which lifts up waves thereof.
Mounting up to the heavens, going down again to the depths; soul is melted in trouble. Reeling to and fro, and staggering like a drunken man, at my wit’s end,
I cry unto the Lord. And then and suddenly;

He brings me out of my distresses. He makes the storms to calm, so that the waves thereof be still; for a moment.
I am glad for “a moment” of quiet and calm. He offers a haven. Yet life cycles does it not in rise and fall? Yes, my life is as the rolling sea and I choose to ride the waves inspite of what it may seem. He is faithful. It does not matter what my five senses observe. It does not matter what I feel in my emotions.

Steadfast and faithful may I remain from commencement unto conclusion, unto the very end as I cross the finish line and draw my last breath in this race. I look unto my Jesus and into His eyes my gaze be affixed. In that day, Him I shall “fully” behold and see. As for now, the time being; I am simply a grandpa who has been so shown my Heavenly Father’s heart in such abundance that if if nothing else, may the remainder of my days serve as an example of a “father to the fatherless”. My charge and cry shall be “Give me my mountain”!, just as it was with Caleb of old. My promise land rests in “the unseen”. That is true faith that pleases God.
Faithful to the little and few placed into my stewardship and trust; great is the reward in the end. I live solely for that which is Eternal. Glory be unto God!

A slice of Surreal in Light of Eternity

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven.(Ecclesiastes 3:1)

I write at all times, totally transparent from where and how life shows up to me; good and bad alike. You will see me at my best and worst of times.

It feels like I now stand in a moment where it seems that no one cares or sees. As no one seems to take note of my most earnest plea. When no certain answers seem to come unto me. As resources seem to dry up and cease to be enough for sufficiency. When infirmity is overcome only to be replaced with yet more adverse diversities; I will lift up to my eyes unto the hills and see. From what comes my help?

Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines,

The produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food,

The flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls,

Yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation.

God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer’s; he makes me tread on my high places. (Habakkuk 3:17-19) My Portion, my Strength, my High Tower, and my Rock. I stand right now solely by faith, and faith alone.

I cannot see in my physical senses a way through in this moment. Jesus is however my way maker as when I feel there is nothing left to fight with. In the natural my tendency would be to give up. I’m tired and weary from all the rise and fall of the breakers of the sea that assault me relentlessly. But I’m in a race, you see. One I must finish.

I’m just being real and true. I still get ensnared by what I feel and see, and like some of you, may have moments that raise the questions of; when shall I ever cling to the taste the victory in all of this? It is like one thing after another, relentlessly pummeling me into the ground.

A time when all around is me seems to be silent and filled with moments where I feel utterly cast down, yet know I am not forsaken.

A time when the joy of the Lord is to be my strength. Yet it seems not readily within reach at the moment. May it fully be restored in Jesus’ name.

Do our Hearts Burn Within? part 1

How hungry are you for the Presence of God? I sense we will be perusing around this question for a time. It seems God is wanting to specifically address this with an intended focus, so this is part one of a series for now. We’ll see where it leads. I am breaking this up into shorter segments so we may more readily grasp and integrate into our walk what I sense as a deep stirring within the hearts of many at this time. The road to Emmaus had a destination; may we realize to a greater extent that we are not looking to “a place” to sojourn to because of the cross we already have all of Jesus and all He represents. You and I are already fully in possession of the Father’s blessing and Promise. There is nothing we have to do but to receive it fully through how we choose to be in every moment.

They walked along the road; two disciples, all alone, their Master dead and gone. How dismayed they must have felt in their hearts. It was like the lamp of their soul was feeling “dimmed” and perhaps going out.

A man came to them and drew near. He spoke with them and calmed their fears,and as their hearts were quieted from their restlessness and distress, they told Him everything.

He knew their sadness, pain and emptiness as for them their lives as they had known them prior to this moment were suddenly no longer the same. It was as a stranger, they perceived was speaking with them. The familiar was no longer physically present to comfort them in their lives now and great change and uncertainty loomed ahead on the horizon. They had been taught and prepared for this hour yet, it was like it had all so quickly become a forgotten dream. A bit of “spiritual amnesia perhaps?

He began to speak unto them and expound from the scriptures. “Why don’t you believe?
For it was necessary for the Christ to suffer all these things and enter His glory.
Why don’t you believe? Why don’t you believe?

They came to journey’s end; He came in to eat with them, He blessed and broke the bread. Then opened were their eyes; Jesus Christ they recognized. He disappeared from them.
Then they said: did not our hearts burn as He spoke those words? While we walked with Him the Scriptures were opened. Did not our hearts burn? Did not our hearts burn?

We walk along our road and He reminds us we were told “I’m with you every day.”
No matter how we feel, He’s the Spirit, He is real, Indwelling you and I.

Do we find ourselves feeling as though our hearts burn when we hear His word?

Jesus is within you and I, and is lifted up through resurrected lives!

Do we walk in resurrected lives? Where we lose ourselves in Him?

Do not our hearts burn? Do not our hearts truly burn for that something greater than we are? Greater than what anyone in our lives can bring to us?

Jesus would now say “For a little while and you will not see me, and again a little while and you will see me?

Truly, truly, I say to you, you will weep and lament, but the world will rejoice.

You will be sorrowful, but your sorrow will turn into joy. When a woman is giving birth, she has sorrow because her hour has come, but when she has delivered the baby, she no longer remembers the anguish, for joy that a human being has been born into the world. So also you have sorrow now, but I will see you again, and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you. In that day you will ask nothing of me. Truly, truly, I say to you, whatever you ask of the Father in my name, he will give it to you. Until now you have asked nothing in my name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full. (John 16:19-24)

The Word of God states that Jesus will return visibly once again just as He left when ascended unto the right hand of the Father following His resurrection. Yet He left us His Spirit who is ever with us. Speaking of the Spirit of truth who has come, “he will guide you into all the truth, for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come. He will glorify me, for he will take what is mine and declare it to you. All that the Father has is mine; therefore I said that he will take what is mine and declare it to you. (John 16:13-15)

No longer needing to speak in solely figures of speech he longs to reveal to us the Father’s heart; that we may know Him in a new way.

Jesus said, “In this day simply ask in my name and I will ask the Father on your behalf; for the Father himself loves you, because you have loved me and have believed that I came from God. I came from the Father and have come into the world.

“Do you now believe?”, Jesus asks, “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)

The question God is asking you and I now is “will you believe, will you believe?

If so then step out in faith beyond what you can feel and see because Jesus seeks now to intersect with his bride.

I will pick up from here the next time we meet where we shall continue to look at how we may respond to this invitation to “intersect” in the greatest of all loves with the Lover of our soul. This is an unprecedented measure of radical love and is therefore going to be a message that bears such nature. I hope you will remain aboard.