When I go after anything in life that compels or draws me to that which I love so very much that I can’t seemingly experience truly fulfillment without, then I have a tendency to get very overzealous and can sometimes go overboard and be relentless in my chasing after it. I can drive myself to exhaustion and depletion in the process. To some that can come across as being too intense in my expression and such intensity can make them feel uneasy at times. Is that a virtue or a vice? Well it depends on how you may choose to look at it.
I guess I am wired to passionately pursue on purpose with what moves me. If it doesn’t move me it is because it has not “caught” my attention. It must catch my attention in order to capture my heart. If my heart is not in it then you won’t find me there most likely, at least not for long. So why do I seem to be wired as such? I sense it because I cannot sit still with what moves me to chase after what stirs inside of me, to merge with the essence and nitty-gritty of who I am. I have to merge and become one with what is likened to the nature of what is most alive within me.
It becomes almost like an obsession with me at times. However what ends up stopping me in life in most cases? It is in being patient with the process in which all of this involves. I may want what I want and want it now and when doors do not seem to open fast enough, I can become given to formulate and begin to “work” self generated agendas to “make it happen” rather than patiently pursuing the process. May I propose an example from the Word of God?
In 2 Kings 9 we find the account of the anointing of Jehu as king over Israel. You might want to go and read that. Here was a man on a mission where nothing would stop him. “And the driving is like the driving of Jehu the son of Nimshi, for he drives furiously.”(2 Kings 9:20) We see pictured the idea of driving, transferred from driving horses harnessed to a chariot, to driving a motor vehicle. How is your driving in life? Are you driven? By what? Jehu was a famously fierce soldier whose chariot-driving followed his temperament. What constitutes one’s temperament?
What drives you in life? Are you passionate or merely passive? Where does passion begin and where does it end and how does this participate with the process of discovering true and lasting fulfillment?
“Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water.”
(Hebrews 10:22 ESV)
What catches your attention in life? What thus captures your heart and consumes your energy? Or do you just seem to want to be passive and take life as it comes at or to you, you know; easy come and easy go? Easy with little go, tends to equate to little or no flow. Life is meant to be in reciprocal motion, is it not? Give and take; a harmonic balance. Then you must “go” for and “with’ that which you seek to know or experience and make your own in life.
You have truth within, that which God has spoken into existence. “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made. (John 1:1-3) Be set apart through truth for his Word is truth. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God.
Draw near to what catches, captures and compels you to move toward making it part of who you are. Align all within the context of God’s Word; written and spoken into you. Fully assure yourself in believing God, taking him at his word concerning what He says of you and of who you are. Strengthen and encourage yourself in the Lord. Ask him the questions that you need to ask; ones in which their answer will require you to take action; to take a step. Don’t wait for God or someone to do it “for you”, because God is waiting for “you” to respond to Him posed in what surrounds you and makes up what is your’s to occupy. At the Cross, Jesus sacrificed his all, his life to provide everything for you now at every level. Have you received his ultimate gift? Occupy that which He has deposited within you and thus is being reflected around you.
Draw near, with a true heart, in full assurance of faith. What are you waiting for? Passionately pursue on purpose, that which is ready to propel you to “participate” in life. I invite you now to put it fully into practice.