This morning I find myself sitting with the same words that comprised my last blog. I hope and trust that there are those of you that are praying for and with me and will continue to do so. Please bear with me. I’ll keep this as brief as possible. I cannot be on here as consistently as I desire. I wish to keep those of you who choose to continue to follow with me in this adventure with God, “on board” in my day to day encounters with Him.
I write from the very experience that I live in the moment. Life can so readily overtake us and its burdens weigh us down to the extent we sometimes feel we cannot take another step. Let alone from the very place we may find ourselves where it becomes an arduous task, it feels almost impossible for the even most simple of tasks in life to work sometimes. We have all been there, haven’t we? Yet what do I look to in the end? It is the one thing that never has nor never will fail me; “the Wonderful grace of Jesus” that reaches me.
I am here for one reason and one reason only and that being; is to testify of His matchless and marvelous grace. My greatest apprehension in life in life being, is in the awareness that perhaps some of you out there have yet to touch the hem of His garment.
Some of you have yet to discover His grace and mercy touching your very lives right where you are at. If that is you then you perhaps you have no clue yet what you are missing if you continue to strive to take matters into your own hands. Please don’t make the mistake I did in waiting so long to reach out to Him and surrender your entire fight, battle and incomprehensible burdens. God never intended for you to bear that on your own. I pray that you can hear what is behind my words this morning.
I have shared with you many times that we are in a race in life; in which there is only one that can receive the prize at the end; “the one who finishes”. “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it. Every athlete exercises self-control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wealth, but we an imperishable. So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air. But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.
(1 Corinthians 9:24-27 ESV)
Within me my body right now is my greatest challenge. You probably get weary of hearing about it, however my life right now is my greatest illustration. Jesus fully purchased my healing on His Cross. Yet incomprehensible affliction may rise up and rage in my core physical frame. It continues to weaken and by the grace of God,I find a measure of strength in Him in intervals. I receive short minute bursts to face the simple tasks of walking out my divine story through just taking simple basic steps. However it doesn’t matter what I feel or see; the only thing that matters is Jesus’ promises to me. So yesterday I awoke to pain levels in the right side side of my body; namely the neck, shoulder and right hip radiating out, bringing tears to stream down my face as the mere lifting and moving of my right arm presented great challenge. Different days manifest differently in the body. There is no medical remedy available; doctors find nothing conclusive. I use a supplemental product God brought into my life that makes it possible to continue to take a next step beyond my comfort zone. This helps me to do a few basics certain days.
Anyway, to keep the story short a normal hour and a half mowing of my lawn yesterday turned into a four hour ordeal which I paced though inch by inch. It took hours of prayer to merely get myself out there and start. The lessons are more than the task itself; so I embrace the challenge for the rewards embedded within.
I finished, yet can’t explain exactly how. It is that as I’m out there, “in the trenches” I am walking with my Jesus. He spits the seas of resistance that mount up try their utmost to press in and hold me down and back. Yet I “keep moving”. I don’t stop. I don’t quit, ever. If I were to give in to the opposition, I would be done in life. I will plow through to the very end. I know not the number of my days. I have however enormous huge vision and dream. (Believe it or not, I still carry a vision to “mountain climb”. With God, all things are possible to those who believe.) If I remain faithful, endeavoring to “build it”, then “they will come”. Others who need what I have with my Jesus will hear and see and come partner with me. This I believe firmly. God has spoken very clearly and distinctly with me on this. We are not to do it alone any longer my friends. God is overturning the apple cart in how we do life. No more “lone rangers” or “self-made men and women”. It is all centered and based in relationship and partnership. We need each others’ pieces to this mosaic. This is kingdom principled and this “is” my “Father’s world” and belongs to His Son Jesus. May He increase as I decrease.
This product I use in my body is I believe a gift from God. I simply want to help others who may be able to benefit from it’s qualities as I have. I am endeavoring to create a platform of business/ministry so I can continue reach out and simply help people to open avenues through which they may experience the “wonderful grace of Jesus”, where life meets them in the road.
It is challenging for me to ask others for help. Many simply do not understand where I operate from right now. I used to have active periods in my life which have now eclipsed to nil to none. My skill sets are now a huge challenge to facilitate into practical productive means as my dependability to physically walk out basics wax and wane, and this effects my cognitive across the board. So I guess in a way, I”m an underdog writing my story as I live it before the eyes of the world “as it were”.
My every moment is a journey of grace. I am trying to build a web presence since I can no longer get out much. I learn by trial and error since being able “pay other’s” is not really an option for me in most cases. I am merely doing my best to make my intrinsic value visible. I give value for value and then some; just not in the way some would expect. It takes everything to maintain my health. May my testimony be an encouragement to someone out there. I do what I do as unto Jesus. I trust that in God’s plan there are perhaps out there among some of you, who perhaps would consider partnering in this process as God speaks to you. May His will be done here on Earth as it is in Heaven. He desires for Heaven to be touching Earth; so may you please keep open hearts.
“And I am no longer in the world, but they are in the world, and I am coming to you. Holy Father, keep them in your name, which you have given me, that they may be one, even as we are one.” (John 17:11) May we bear this in mind and endeavor to “be one” in our Father’s love. I encourage you to sit with Jesus’ prayer in John 17.
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If you have read this far and remained with me then I thank you for taking the time to hear my heart. I merely am doing my best to keep all transparent and hopefully cohesive. May God bless you!