For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven.(Ecclesiastes 3:1)
I write at all times, totally transparent from where and how life shows up to me; good and bad alike. You will see me at my best and worst of times.
It feels like I now stand in a moment where it seems that no one cares or sees. As no one seems to take note of my most earnest plea. When no certain answers seem to come unto me. As resources seem to dry up and cease to be enough for sufficiency. When infirmity is overcome only to be replaced with yet more adverse diversities; I will lift up to my eyes unto the hills and see. From what comes my help?
Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines,
The produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food,
The flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls,
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer’s; he makes me tread on my high places. (Habakkuk 3:17-19) My Portion, my Strength, my High Tower, and my Rock. I stand right now solely by faith, and faith alone.
I cannot see in my physical senses a way through in this moment. Jesus is however my way maker as when I feel there is nothing left to fight with. In the natural my tendency would be to give up. I’m tired and weary from all the rise and fall of the breakers of the sea that assault me relentlessly. But I’m in a race, you see. One I must finish.
I’m just being real and true. I still get ensnared by what I feel and see, and like some of you, may have moments that raise the questions of; when shall I ever cling to the taste the victory in all of this? It is like one thing after another, relentlessly pummeling me into the ground.
A time when all around is me seems to be silent and filled with moments where I feel utterly cast down, yet know I am not forsaken.
A time when the joy of the Lord is to be my strength. Yet it seems not readily within reach at the moment. May it fully be restored in Jesus’ name.