I continue the journey this morning on this page as I have been asked to write the entirety of the experience as much as I am able. So please keep the prayers coming as I requested the other day. The grip of this illness is remaining tenacious however God’s grace gives me intervals of a few short hours interspersed through the day so I am getting some relief. He has also provided me access to a product I have started using recently which releases 4 key elements in the brain which restore partially the capacity the brain functions that effect my cognitive and motor functions. This allows my body to function marginally at least part of the time. So this helps to sustain my ability to write and get some sleep through all of this. The pain levels are getting quite high so this product is quite a God send right now. So I doing the best I can with a situation where I remain a medical mystery. The doctors say I have such a conglomeration of mixed symptoms that put together do not fit their medical journals. That on top of my being solely on Medicaid, limits the possible of scans and imaging that have already been done in the last two years from being revisited. Since I have been in and out chronic illness for a number of years that came and went, and it was never anything close to this level of severity the doctors says pretty much that they are at a loss for answers so what do I expect them to do for me? So I am beyond medical doctors now it seems. I’ve gone to numerous specialists for “second opinions” and they all continue the same story; one with no answers.
It is now up to “The GREAT Physician, Jesus. So if you can stay with me as I continue to write, He has me recording what are becoming I guess chronicles of the story He wrote for me to walk out. One He intends to be kept before many witnesses to testify of the goodness and grace of God. I have no idea what He plans to do with all of this. I now move to onto a walker so I can move about without depleting my body entirely. Right now about all the “getting out of the house” I can handle is a trip to church on Sunday morning and a random appointment as it needs to happen. I have condensed most of my daily activities to keep my work moving forward to within my desk/creative work area in the center of my living space. So I must have my world “brought to me” now for the most part. One of the greatest challenges to my well being is that of ending up isolated. I was for the most part social and active until recently and some of the people in my life aren’t really certain as to what they can do or how to respond to my rather sudden downturn. I usually pursued the social action and now have to resort to attracting it to “come to me”. Now I can’t go after it except through my technology, and since I cannot be out without someone accompanying me without compromising my safety and well being, public transit is currently a huge challenge. Moving from being able to work within an “outside world” to a “home bound self-contained one” in handicapped status is met with a support system that pretty much is “hurry up and wait”, and the wheels of progress may grind slowly as I don’t seem to fit textbook categories. I’m feeling like a statistic sometimes. So I find myself in a transitional interim of adaptation resorting to a great deal of creative ingenuity, which I’ve had to do before in life.
So now here this morning I have encapsulated my situation into a condensed form synopsis so you have a picture of where I am writing and living from and perhaps you can be therefore open to what God does with this “storybook of one life” being drawn into the realm of His magnificent and matchless grace, where He plans for Heaven to touch Earth. This is I sense, a classroom wherein He is about to display something unprecedented. I invest a great deal of prayer time into this as my pace has been so considerably slowed. He has been pulling the curtain back to a certain degree and giving me previews of what He desires to see in His sons and daughters.
I shall trade these ashes for beauty most certainly. I was beginning to touch a number of lives when I was able to be out and about physically and now I seem to be touching even more solely from right here at this desk. I am finding others in far worst dire straights than mine beginning to reach out to me for prayer and support. Amazing as I have been feeling the overwhelm of where I find myself now and as I call for the receiving of prayer and support. I can see God doing something here supernatural that I could never have anticipated. The difference being though during that process, I am apparently having to adapt to that of going from a very diminished “face to face and person to person” interconnecting to one of mostly on-line and video. So that is one platform that I have under construction at this time. However it is just not quite the same. God turned me from an introvert to an extrovert over the past year and a half and now I crave the “touch and feel” of personal contact since it has become diminished. So why would God thrust me out into such social interaction only to allow it to collapse to bring me to feel starved and deprived of what my being so requires now at higher levels? So many people are so consumed by maintaining their own centrally focused world that they have so little to offer beyond the limitations of it’s borders? This calls for some serious consideration. We’ve lost something so very precious in our culture. God has a plan to turn that upside down. We have never seen the likes of what is beginning to be unleashed. I’m giving you a heads up perhaps?
“The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim liberty to the captives and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.” (Luke 4:18)
Now that I’ve brought you up to speed on where I’m coming from, I resume my joyful endeavor of bringing you an extraordinary gospel that this world has for the most part forgotten. To do so from where I find my self right now in life is my answer to the call of this gospel of Jesus Christ. Think it not strange when you find yourself in the midst of fiery trials. The fire of God is rising. The heat is being turned up to consume all within us that keeps the kingdom of God that is already within you and I, contained.
It is the time for each of us to be unleashed from the darkness that may be pervading within our lives and thrust into a move of the Spirit of God that “we are” as sons and daughters of the King. Yes “WE ARE” the move of God so don’t go looking for a move of God somewhere else; your “it” and I intend to keep saying this and keep the Word of God coming at you until I hear from God that we all have had the seed of His message planted in our hearts and really waking up to the light of marvelous Kingdom of God; until we have an awareness of a personal encounter with Jesus that awaits each and every one of. The seed will have been planted. What you do with it is your choice and yours alone to make. I just plant and water; it is God who brings the increase. So I hope you stay with me. The love of God is extraordinary in nature and now being poured out in unlimited measure. Get ready!
For freedom, Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit to the yoke of slavery. (Galatians 5:1)
Most of us want to control our own destiny. That is the driving core issue behind our lives getting into the turmoil that they do. In the process of trying to drive our own lives we become severed from Christ and fall from the grace God has extended to us to live and walk in. (Galatians 5:4)
May we eagerly hope for the hope of righteousness (5:6), for it is only by faith working through love can we be restored in and through the grace of God “and” with each other in Christ to be “that move of God that we are”.
May we resist the yoke of slavery that seeks to keep us restrained and in chains of bondage.
Any biblical, spiritual, or human strategy that gives you or I advantage over others or circumstances will only seek to divide, separate and isolate us from one another and the “opportunities” God holds in store for each of us.
May we be led solely by the Word, His Word; which would come to us in every moment if we are indeed in every moment receiving with humility, that engrafted word that is able to save our souls. (James 1:21) Then our life story and destiny can unfold “automatically” rather than you or I conjuring up every detail of how we create every step and walk it out only to through mess up what God already has laid out for you and I in His divine order and plan.
Now that is a radical word! Will you receive it? Jesus is our advantage!
“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:38,39 ESV)
So if nothing whatsoever can separate us of the love of God, the why would we be taking steps to filter out, isolate or separate ourselves from from this love and thus from one another?
Ponder that if you will. We’ll break this down and look at it more closely and I believe this will shift our entire lives beyond anything we can ask, think or imagine. Exciting times ahead!