As I continue on in in sharing and expounding from what I sense to be a revelation from God that He has been giving me in addressing His end time church which I believe He is calling forth to step up and into the true identity that He has deposited within each and every one of us; I must pause and ponder what He is saying to me at this moment.
At this point, this morning I physically stand as it were on a precipice. My physical body continues to to grow weaker and decline with more compromised complications. I shall not reiterate the details thereof. Simply put, I remain a medical mystery quickly dismissed by the medical community and due to that some people in my life as well don’t take this and me serious because I apparently don’t fit within the frame of reference of my doctors or their opinions. I endeavor to not take this personally however I am human and thus have my shortcomings.
If you want to know of what I refer to, then it can be found within my previous blog posts; mainly my last few over recent days. At the moment I am for the most part confined to my work space here in my home which is my office from which I execute the assignment my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ has commissioned me to carry out. Namely that is to continue to journal and post the story I am walking out and to get my first book which lays out that story published and shared. My hope is to do so daily, however I don’t quite always meet that intention so I produce as I am able in the grace God gives me. I request and trust that those of you who can at least in part understand; please keep the prayers coming. I intend to finish my course and cross the finish line no matter how that ends up looking. I can only imagine that day when I fully enter into the joy of my Lord and Savior. I just want to assist as many of you as I can to do the same and that is to finish the race and to do so “well done” as a faithful servant of Jesus Christ.
I face and am learning to deal with some of the criticism that comes from a world that does not understand the kingdom of God and how the Father intends for that to come forth in a time such as this. There is a spirit of judgement and condemnation prevalent within the church generally across the board. I am here to help break that off and in order to do so requires steps to expose it for what is. I pray you will receive what I shall be bringing forth in love. I pray you will receive the words that are behind the words that I speak and write. Word from the heart of God that venture from the written form and expand into the “rhema” and “zoe” aspect of communicative revelation. I minister primarily from this realm and so trust that God, through His process unveils His intention and truth and these will be conveyed. So please bear with me and I hope you will patiently stay with me and continue on this journey.
For as I received from the Lord what I am delivering to you, that the Lord Jesus on the night when he was betrayed took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it, and said, “This is my body, which is for you. Do this in remembrance of me”.
He spoke from his physical body by way of example to reflect His body as a whole on the spiritual level, which is issued in the heavenly realm so that it may be given life to be expressed in the physical realm; here on earth as it is in heaven”. You and I are and therefore constitute “that body”. What I am endeavoring to to do is to illustrate “relationship” from God’s perspective in hopes that we may begin to see one another in this light.
What I want you to see is that Jesus’ body was broken or sacrificially rendered and given on the Cross so that our body first metaphorically then in pursuant response may be “broken” and in and thorough our relationship with Jesus to the extent that our “focus on self” is melted into His Presence and slowly dissolves. Then we are compelled by such an ineffable love that is beyond what our minds can conceive yet our heart can render, when consumed by “His love”, that we render our body, soul and spirit to be fully broken and rendered sacrificially in Jesus “and” consequently to one another. Is this hard medicine for you to receive? I sense some of you may get really messed up in your emotions before all is said and done. This is going to the core of my being as well. I will only write and speak what I am first willing to walk out myself. So I pray you don’t opt out. Please stay the course if you can. It is the hardest thing most of us will humanly face in this life my friends and is as real as it gets. We are in this together, like it or not not. This is what Jesus was illustrating in in His prayer for us in John 17. If you haven’t sat with that then please take time to do so. Take a moment now to breath; as it hurts my flesh to say what has to be said and I do so totally in love.
Right now I am literally experiencing a measure of this love beginning to open that is trying to break out of me as a river of living water. I am slowly endeavoring to unveil this in illustration to you. This is “the treasure” that is wrapped inside of some the pain, sickness, infirmity, and atrocities that perhaps has been or is erupting in your lives as well. As you harbor and shield hurt, shame and pain from other members of His body then you are actually containing those emotions in the gall of bitterness which will in time physically consumes your physical temple and results in the end of it’s physical expression. We all experience the physical death of our body eventually however we “can” have that be in a gentle completion winding down of closure that unfolds in the beauty and grace of a loving and peaceful full surrender. A song of love sung and offered unto the heart of one another.
So let me say this; you are doing yourself no service to keep the details of life that have hurt you and rendered you in expression of body and soul “broken”, sealed up in “self imposed privacy”. Please hear me out here. God may give you an avenue to release a burden a you cannot carry alone. You never meant to carry “anything” alone. You choose to isolate and keep it to yourself? It will consume you like a cancer. Trust me on that I know. What is going on in my body right know is perhaps being allowed through God’s design to unfold the way it is to be a living epistle to known and read of all men. Disease and the fallout thereof is perhaps the result of containment of unresolved issues delivered to you and I illustrate life. So life has brought you injustice? Indeed it may have, however may I now take you to a lesson Jesus gave us on this very elemental aspect of “life” and how and why it shows up the way it does.
“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy. ’But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” (Matthew 5:43-38 ESV)
This lesson is not about your holiness or perfection of who you are. It “is” about encouraging the church to be “like their father”. The Father is a loving Father. He loves “everyone” equally. You are no different than any unbeliever you cross on the street. You are no different than anyone else that drives the same roads you do. God loves ALL exactly the same way. His attitude is the same toward His best friend as as toward His perceived enemy. You must allow yourself to be perfected as your Father is perfect. Will we love like him? God’s love pursues outside of “our friends”. We tend to “discriminate” rather than “affiliate”. God pours His love equally. Radical love that knows no end. Perfecting is loving from the heart “as God does”. There are to be no boundaries. So why do we impose such limitations on ourselves? We always have access to loving others, yet do we make excuses as to why we cannot? Every battle we face seeks to ensnare us in self focus. It is natural for us to “categorize” the people that cross our paths and enter our lives. Such as “believers, unbelievers, saved and unsaved, mature and immature. spiritual and not spiritual, theist or atheist, or by denominations or religious or non religious. There is no “us and them”. Do you see how many ways and means we naturally tend to seek to separate and isolate ourselves from one another when all God sees are His sons and daughters? Why do you and I tend to see differently? I have much more to expound on this and I shall with each blog post until God says I’m done.
I do attest to one thing which I will state right now. As I walk out what I am teaching and sharing here in application then I believe God has a healing in my body that shall unfold to the extent that I shall see at least some of the dreams he has given me to achieve in this life come fully to fruition. Much of what I sense by what is felt in my body and in imposition to be to a standstill leads me to sense that my body is dying. I believe it is. However turning in true repentance at God’s loving rebuke can transform my entire life. I sense the same will be true for some of you.
Some of you have shared your humanly impossible “situations” privately with me, seeking prayer for God’s resolution. I wonder how people who I hardly know and certainly have little knowledge of as to what they have gone are led to seek me out as someone who maybe can hear and help them get answers. As I take this before God, what I am sharing with you here this morning keeps staring me in the face. We are all in this together my friends. If we can love as God loves, then the the kingdom of God comes into manifestation and heaven touches earth. I have been blessed along the way in life in recent days with how examples of living under open heavens can be experienced. For such a time as this as I find myself in my physical state of being that waxes and wanes, I must multiply into the lives of others what God has poured into me. However that shows up, therein I am content and give thanks unto God as in Christ I have the victory. I am a child of God and so are you and perhaps together we discover more of what that truly means.
”In the same way also he took the cup, after supper, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood. Do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of me.” For as often as you eat this bread and drink the cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death until he comes. (the above drawn from: 1 Corinthians 11:23-26 ESV)
The new covenant is in His blood. Jesus paid it all and fulfilled it all to free us from living under the law of sin and death. Are you and I willing to drink from His cup? Do it in remembrance of His sacrifice. To partake of his body is to discern that body which leaves no one out as we have begun to look at this morning. Consider Jesus and let us fully consider one another in the countenance of His love and may we discover what it is to live in that loving embrace; with him and with each other. It is all by his grace which is always sufficient to walk out what He gives and allows into our lives in order to bring us into the fullness of his love.