As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God. (Psalm 42:1)
Hello and good morning my fellow readers! My heart is opening wider with each new day. Jesus is so very real to me and in such a way I am reaching for the means to share with you all of this journey. I am so filled and consumed with His love right now and my heart is so very full of the joy that emanates from being in his presence. I am trying to find the words and the avenues to humanly express what is beyond what my mind can even comprehend. The communion I now experience with Jesus is so beyond anything I have ever known. His presence so meets me right where I am, with all the flaws and frailties that come with life in human flesh in the midst, His strength comes in and fills all those those seemingly weak places in life.
In my humanity I feel I don’t deserve the extent and magnitude of love that He showers me with and immerses me in. I am totally enveloped. Yet He is so worthy of all and my highest expression of love so I offer it back to Him even as I can at times feel so inadequate. All fear has melted into His presence. Sure, I still have apprehensions. There are aspects in my life that can feel petrifying to the soul when I allow myself to begin to lose sight of who Jesus is. But then I can always come running back to him like a little child. I am not afraid to be vulnerable in His presence because there I find only the deepest measure of love and there I am totally safe.
What He has shown me is that we can be just like this with each other and we are to become such and we shall be as such, in time.
I am being absolutely being transparent with you all right now. I wish for you to grasp and to understand that this is very real and present. Some of you may not know how to receive this but I am putting out into my world who I truly am in Jesus now. I don’t care about anyone’s opinion but that of Jesus’. When you see me, all I want to reflect to you is who Jesus is.
The other day I died to who I was. I laid all of that down and surrendered it at His feet, at the foot of the cross. Actually more and more of me dies daily that is not true to the story He has written for me to walk out in life. You see nothing else matters to me anymore but to fully please and honor Him. I have been crucified with Him and am risen with Him. I now choose to walk with Him, day by day. Love is a sole purely actioned choice. It is not a feeling or emotion. It is a decision that every day I choose to pick up and embrace to live out as fully as I can.
He invites each of you to come home to Him fully. Just as you are and He awaits to fully receive and embrace you into his Presence. He already gave His very all and life for you. He paid the full price for all you have ever done and will ever do. You may feel parts of you are broken inside. You are not broken but perfect in him. Let Him take your perceptions and give you new vision of who you truly are in him. You don’t have to become anything or do anything except believe Him for who He is and what He has done for you to make the way for you to be like Him. Just give Him your heart, give Him your hurts, give Him all your pain. Give Him all your burdens and care. It is so easy once you just say “Yes, Jesus, Yes, I will. Lord help me in my unbelief to believe you more”. It is that simple. You don’t need to carry it anymore. Let it all go and let Him fully come in. What more is be said right now? Only trust Him.
“For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16 ESV) Tomorrow, perhaps we will look at eternal life and what that actually is.
I’ll be back. I trust and pray that you can hear my heart and I will return with more from this personal adventure with God. I truly appreciate those of who follow and read this journal. I merely aspire to present Jesus to you as real as can be, where life meets us each and every moment, right where each of are; He is, all for you. Nothing can separate the love of God from you and I. His love permeates all.