Have you ever been so very engaged in the fast track of life that it feels like things are flying ever so high and you wonder if it could feel any better than this? I’m sure many of us could attest to having such an experience.
When the ride is so exhilarating that you don’t even hardly stop to pause until suddenly piece by piece aspects of the ride begin to become dysfunctional and then you think that you “have this” and can merely make a pit stop and here and there; all in order to make some quick fixes or patches along the way. Then to say “I will manage to hold it all together until I feel justified”, to find a resting place where I can take some deep breaths and rest a spell and just smell the roses?
Getting “beyond tired” one does not secure much in the way of sustainable rest and then it is just about guaranteed that “crash time” will arrive and it will likely occur in the worst possible moment. Then I am truly sidelined and then when the object lesson comes into focus I ask myself just how did this happen? So let’s have an “aha” moment and take a timeout.
We are not wired to live this kind of pace but how easy it can become for this to be a pattern in which we run the race. Eventually, we will burn out and find ourselves sidelined for a spell and then it takes a while to recoup so we can go again.
My week comes to a close in a similar fashion right now and how many times have I became ensnared in such a scenario? One too many I must conclude. This blog is my recorded journey on a personal adventure with God and so here I share pretty much all. Confession is good for the soul, right?
Let’s recall what Jesus had to say about the matter, as that is what came to me this morning.
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit. Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him; he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. (John 15:1-5)
I can become so engaged “for the Master” if not careful that before long I can find myself relying on what I know that I can do in a familiar way and have drifted into autopilot and unaware that I am not tapping into the vine any longer. My resources are suddenly getting pruned because my walk has started to become unfruitful. What? How did I allow myself to fall into that trap?
Well, this cut me to the heart immediately upon realization. Yes, the intimacy was no longer present and somehow got severed in the midst of “my weariness”. Note here that Jesus said, “you are clean through the word I have spoken to you”. So where did I replace listening to His still small voice with “thinking” that somehow gained precedent? Yes, I tend to think too much and the thoughts drown out the voice of the one who loves me the most. Suddenly I realize that the honeymoon was interrupted, and where was I heading? Away from the lover of my soul! Oh, I am so feeling the impact of the repercussions from my careless actions. My heart melts; Oh how could I? But yet I did. Out a cascading flood of tears ensues and He is right here waiting for me and I return back to the honeymoon. In returning and rest are we saved, and in quietness and confidence shall be our strength, if we but shall so choose to take that extended hand offered, instead of staying on that fast riding horse of self-confidence; where if we remain on that ride, that which pursues will be even swifter and soon overtake us.
I resolve that I shall henceforth “be determined to be found “abiding in Him”. I just stepped into my new identity ever so recently and “already” was going on a rabbit trail of my own design. Old habits tend to die slowly in some cases but something tells me that this object lesson will remain deeply entrenched in my awareness. My heart has been awakened in loving response.
Continuing on with what Jesus said; “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in his love. These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full”.
I am in this moment back in the fullness of immense joy and the honeymoon has resumed and I am being renewed and the weariness is leaving. See how wonderful Jesus is; he never leaves even when I wander off.
“This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. These things I command you, so that you will love one another.”
May you and I purpose to walk and remain in such love with the lover of our soul and with one another. Yes, we can walk in such love with one another! We are called to such and we are designed to live in this manner and this is what it means to abide in His love and live life to the fullest and more abundantly unto eternity. As we discover what it is to truly lay our life down for Him and for one another in unconditional surrender, then shall we know what it is to take it up again walking in newness of life; “a resurrected life”. This is living on purpose, walking out our divine destiny.